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Happy Christmas merry Christmas happy new year yay! making Christmas art at work woo woo! lets hope the garden ridge and gordmans buyers loves them!

July 21st 2006, Mt.Vernon suffered a terrible storm, a storm that knocked out power, tore houses apart and snapped trees in half. At that time I was pregnant with Ember, and I remember standing in my closet under the stairs with my husband and my dog, kinda scared cuz it was one of the worst storms i can remember. the day after that storm i went into labor and had ember on the 23rd.And since Ember has been alive there hasnt been any bad storms like that till the recent tornados in small towns around mt.vernon, call my crazy but i always felt like the storm had something to do with ember, and since she's been alive she has brought nothing but joy& happiness to everyone she meets. This year Ember turned five, and that weekend while ember was having a great birthday weekend it wasn't a good weekend for others some of my family lost a husband and father to a heart attack. along with that, one of our close friends survived and unimaginable car wreck with scratches and a concussion. Another friend i have know for along time was ina terrible car wreck, but he and his passenger survived. What it is about this date that keeps me wondering. 2011, by far has been one of the worst years, we lost a dear friend from the day this year has start, my family has had injuries,and problems in school, the tusami in japan, the uprisins of diffrent countries trying to fight for thier rights, and money, the local high school suffered the loss of a soccer/ basketball coach. and these recent events mentioned above. I will not have another year were i lose and almost lose very important people in my life. i will not stand for it. so lets keep the rest of this year positive, and safe.  2012, you better not get any worse than this year or we are going to have problems.

It was the worst new years ever. my buddie ive know for ten years passed away unexpectedly i was just partying and celebrating the new year with him. and then he was gone in matter of hours. my heart hurts its aching for his mother.and my friends who were there and witnessed. the parties will never be the same ever ever ever. he will never be forgotten and we will toast to him every chance we get, and we'll remember all the good times and the funny stuff he did and how he touched all of our lives. love you $Tmoney$ hope you're partying it up in heaven. champaign campaign forever man

so i was sitting at work saving a file, jamming to "Juicy- notorious B.I.G." and i was thinking about the private school i went to and when i was younger the teachers told me my art wouldn't amount to anything- "being an artist won't pay bills, be a banker, or a teacher" "stop doodling on your homework, stop drawing and do you English" i once got punished for drawing instead of doing something/ but i never listened regardless of what all my teaches said. one teacher in 4th grade teacher made a huge impact on me telling me my art was beautiful and to keep going it. i didn't really realize at that time that most of my teachers were trying to force me to be another face in the crowd- and do what everyone else does-and in high school it was simple to embrace my artistic ability- it was fine i wanted to be an artist- what kind? i didnt know - I made stuff from a evil clown ceramic mask- to a 3d vemon popping out of black flames, a ceramic mega man doll, 5 pieces mix media of beads and paint (that won a few awards and featured in the local museum) pen and inks that got honorable mentions, some of my favorite pencils drawings, towards the end of my high school life i started falling to the graphic design world where you could do anything you wanted. college took graphics design classes and i fell in love, my teacher loved all my ideas and supported every single one, even though a few where crappily (made that one up) made. i had a job where i design scrapbooks for people with mixed paper media's, i have designed jewelry for numerous people. i fell in love with photography too. and I searched for graphic design jobs but around here there isn't very many- then i finally got hired and now my graphic design art is in stores and making money- and it just makes me glad that i didn't listen to my teacher- didn't shove my creativity down into myself to disappear.i remember a few girls who's parents and teachers convinced them it wasn't right to be artistic. i embraced that i was weird, and crazy and didn't care what people approved of. I may not be making millions of dollars or live in a huge ass house- but when i was younger i always thought it would be better to be in love and broke than to be rich and lonely. Oh and I'm not broke any more, i have a great job, i have a handsome and loving husband a beautiful daughter and a happy life- it may have taken a long time to get here but this is what i've always wanted to be an "artist" ever since i was little girl and i'm glad i finally made it

don't believe in yourself believe in me who believes in you
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